eloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and
be in health , just as your soul prospers. - 3 John 1:2
be in health , just as your soul prospers. - 3 John 1:2
 |
 |
 |
 |
 |
 |
 |
 |
 |
 |
 |
 |
 |
 |
 |
 |
 |
 |
 |
 |
 |
 |
 |
 |
B
You are NEVER alone in your struggles!!
Confessions is a special section that will include personal and true stories
from people at various stages of life.
The stories will include:
Some of the stories will be anonymous, and some will choose to leave theirname. The purpose of this section is to share struggles and to serve as a tool
to help and offer healing in those areas that most are afraid to reveal.
If you have a confession (it can be totally anonymous) you would like to
share please email: Confessions
Confessions is a special section that will include personal and true stories
from people at various stages of life.
The stories will include:
 | Confessions of the Single Christian Woman | |
| Confessions of Newlywed (to come) | |
| Confessions of a Married Man (to come) | |
| and more! |
Some of the stories will be anonymous, and some will choose to leave their
to help and offer healing in those areas that most are afraid to reveal.
If you have a confession (it can be totally anonymous) you would like to
share please email: Confessions
| Copyright T Gordon 2007. Whole Souls Organization All rights reserved. Do not copy, distribute or use any part of this work without express, written permission from the creator of Whole Souls, T Gordon. |
One thing I could always count on for a quick fix was God and men. If I wanted to feel better I
would either go to church or on a date with a man, whether I really liked him or not. Both church
and men were very easy for me to obtain and always readily available. Unfortunately, there came a
time when instead of leaving either the church or the man fulfilled, I left empty. Empty because I
used both church and men as a mask for my symptoms, instead of the dealing with core issue of
what was really bothering me.
I would go to church to get a ‘word’ and I would be ‘high’ off that word for awhile, but soon I was
back into the abyss of depression. I would be on a date with a man feigning phony smiles. While
his hands were all over me, I was secretly wishing it would soon be over. I was a lonely soul; lonely
in a crowd, lonely with a man, and definitely lonely when I was alone. I had so many unresolved
issues that I did not want to deal with, so I filled up my space with noise and people. And as a
result, there were consequences. I had to face the consequences of entertaining the wrong company.
I dealt with men who only wanted one thing, and it wasn’t my intelligence. I only wanted someone
or something there. I was not in the will of God. Not that I was doing anything particularly bad,
but I knew that what I engaged in was not God’s plan for my life. I had no peace. I was not happy
or hopeful. I was always angry at myself and others around me. In a word, I was bitter. Bitter
because I thought that God should be doing more for me. Bitter because everyone around me
seemed to be flourishing and growing, while I was still stuck in the same cycle. Bitter because I felt
that life had handed me a bad rap.
I had not taken the time to really get to know God or even who I was IN God. In my mind God
was an entity that was unattached and unemotional who only punished me when I made a
mistake. I did not see Him as the loving and kind God who wanted the very best for me. I kept
making wrong choices. I kept living my life as if God did not care. Even though I was raised IN
church, I was not clear as to who God really was! Until, I started learning about the very nature of
God. I asked Him to show me how He felt about me. I asked God to let me know what it felt like to
be loved. I began to completely understand that God is Love. He is full of in grace and mercy. Even
in my failings and shortcomings, He was merciful to me. When I should have been dead based on
my own choices and mistakes, He spared my very life. He gave me another chance to get it right.
I soon realized that being alone did not mean I had to be lonely. Being alone did not mean that I
had to be busy every minute of my day so that I could not enjoy me. After all, God and me is really
all I had. As time progressed, I discovered that I was just fine being by myself. I began to pray and
read the Word. I took every promise in the bible seriously. I applied it to my own life and soon
things began to change. I dropped toxic people (men and women) from my life. If they were only
users and not giving back what I had poured out, it was time for them to go! For every friend I
dropped, God replaced them with more. I started cultivating my life and discovering who I was in
Christ. I wanted to be free from bitterness and anger. I wanted peace to radiate in my life from the
inside out.
Soon, God began to show me what He wanted me to do. He began to lead me into my purpose. He
let me know that all that I had experienced was not in vain, but rather to be used as a tool to help
someone else get through. Even though I had been in hurtful situations (including molestation,
emotional abuse, and broken relationships), it was time for me grow up and take responsibility for
what I could change, and forgive the people that caused me pain and heartache.
Now, I can truly say that I am not where I want to be but I am certainly not where I used to be. I
don’t have to fill my space with noise or people in order to be happy. I am perfectly content being
alone and I actually enjoy it. When I do come together with friends, it is much smoother because I
am not dependent on them nor do I have unrealistic expectations as to what and who they are in
my life. God is so great. He has truly changed me from the inside out, and I am filled with joy daily.
Even though painful times still come, do I know for a fact that God will see me through and bring
me out victorious! Finally, I can say that I am a successful, happy, and faith-filled single woman in
Christ. And that is my confession!
-Submitted by Anonymous
would either go to church or on a date with a man, whether I really liked him or not. Both church
and men were very easy for me to obtain and always readily available. Unfortunately, there came a
time when instead of leaving either the church or the man fulfilled, I left empty. Empty because I
used both church and men as a mask for my symptoms, instead of the dealing with core issue of
what was really bothering me.
I would go to church to get a ‘word’ and I would be ‘high’ off that word for awhile, but soon I was
back into the abyss of depression. I would be on a date with a man feigning phony smiles. While
his hands were all over me, I was secretly wishing it would soon be over. I was a lonely soul; lonely
in a crowd, lonely with a man, and definitely lonely when I was alone. I had so many unresolved
issues that I did not want to deal with, so I filled up my space with noise and people. And as a
result, there were consequences. I had to face the consequences of entertaining the wrong company.
I dealt with men who only wanted one thing, and it wasn’t my intelligence. I only wanted someone
or something there. I was not in the will of God. Not that I was doing anything particularly bad,
but I knew that what I engaged in was not God’s plan for my life. I had no peace. I was not happy
or hopeful. I was always angry at myself and others around me. In a word, I was bitter. Bitter
because I thought that God should be doing more for me. Bitter because everyone around me
seemed to be flourishing and growing, while I was still stuck in the same cycle. Bitter because I felt
that life had handed me a bad rap.
I had not taken the time to really get to know God or even who I was IN God. In my mind God
was an entity that was unattached and unemotional who only punished me when I made a
mistake. I did not see Him as the loving and kind God who wanted the very best for me. I kept
making wrong choices. I kept living my life as if God did not care. Even though I was raised IN
church, I was not clear as to who God really was! Until, I started learning about the very nature of
God. I asked Him to show me how He felt about me. I asked God to let me know what it felt like to
be loved. I began to completely understand that God is Love. He is full of in grace and mercy. Even
in my failings and shortcomings, He was merciful to me. When I should have been dead based on
my own choices and mistakes, He spared my very life. He gave me another chance to get it right.
I soon realized that being alone did not mean I had to be lonely. Being alone did not mean that I
had to be busy every minute of my day so that I could not enjoy me. After all, God and me is really
all I had. As time progressed, I discovered that I was just fine being by myself. I began to pray and
read the Word. I took every promise in the bible seriously. I applied it to my own life and soon
things began to change. I dropped toxic people (men and women) from my life. If they were only
users and not giving back what I had poured out, it was time for them to go! For every friend I
dropped, God replaced them with more. I started cultivating my life and discovering who I was in
Christ. I wanted to be free from bitterness and anger. I wanted peace to radiate in my life from the
inside out.
Soon, God began to show me what He wanted me to do. He began to lead me into my purpose. He
let me know that all that I had experienced was not in vain, but rather to be used as a tool to help
someone else get through. Even though I had been in hurtful situations (including molestation,
emotional abuse, and broken relationships), it was time for me grow up and take responsibility for
what I could change, and forgive the people that caused me pain and heartache.
Now, I can truly say that I am not where I want to be but I am certainly not where I used to be. I
don’t have to fill my space with noise or people in order to be happy. I am perfectly content being
alone and I actually enjoy it. When I do come together with friends, it is much smoother because I
am not dependent on them nor do I have unrealistic expectations as to what and who they are in
my life. God is so great. He has truly changed me from the inside out, and I am filled with joy daily.
Even though painful times still come, do I know for a fact that God will see me through and bring
me out victorious! Finally, I can say that I am a successful, happy, and faith-filled single woman in
Christ. And that is my confession!
-Submitted by Anonymous
| Confessions of a Single Christian Woman |